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I just listened to "All I Ask Of You", and a lot of memories, including would be’s, crossed my mind.

It was memorable taking my first flight to the States and watching Andrew Lloyd Webber’s The Phantom Of The Opera again. While everyone was sleeping, there I was immortalizing the song and thinking of my poor self being emotionally attached with nothing but a song. Come to think of it, when was the last time I pursued someone? Uh… never.

It’s really very nice, the song. It’s even nicer to share it with someone. How many times have I thought of sung wedding vows? Almost everytime I go sentimental. Yes, it might not be easy to see, but I am easily affected with all these drama I see in the movies. Hahaha you got that right. I have no idea what’s driving me nuts, the fact that I don’t have someone to love or the doubt that once I pursue that love… it will fail. Gosh. How many years have I been tormented by this? Ten? All my life? Hmmm…

I love the song because it gives you a big sense of security in its words. I think that love should be as passionate as this song, and I give due credit for Andrew Lloyd Webber for thinking of it.

Could someone explain what I’m feeling? I think it’s not bitterness. How would I be bitter if I haven’t been there and done that? My analysis says it’s a mix of curiosity, desolation, boredom, envy… maybe even desperation.

56K Highlights: There is a bottom line in every dilemma similar to what I have presented here. Disagree if you like, but this is the only thing I can think of. Experience is the best teacher.

If I have disturbed you in any way whatsoever, just don’t mind me. I’m just sharing. Comments are always welcome.

Marvin the Martian™, jaz thinking aloud

P.S. An advanced Merry Christmas to everyone!

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